By Myself

People are dying of cancer
Sadness is spreading quick
I don't have an answer
But I know it is making me sick


I can't believe my heart
It says I have to leave
Why is life so hard?
Is there any relief?


I'm so afraid
Hope and Faith are true religions
I'm trusting in Faith
Because Hope is the reason why I'm suspicious


Gandhi says "You must be the change you want to see"
Whatever you do in life is insignificant but important to do it
That's where it hav to start by me!
But I refuse to think it would help a bit


My fear is sinking in
I listen to Gandhi and be the change I wanted to see
I let Gandhi win
He was right I had to start by me

The Agony

I have nothing left to lose
I lost my feeling of love and fear
I lost you, my perfect muse
I never let a single tear

The Agony is biting my heart
It's cutting my eyes
The pain is tearing me apart
The Agony is the consequence of my lies

Lies about my live
Lies about you
Lies about the pain of a knife
I just wanted to start something new

A new live, A new begin
I have no purpose in live
I just want something to win
I just want a new reason to survive

I don't care about the nothingness inside of me
The sacrafices destroyed my reasons to excist
The sacrafice of becoming enemy
Evil power is hard to resist

The Agony is the venom in my skin
I'm the monster in your head
Just a beast within
I want it to be death

I'm so sorry
But all the lights goes out in the end
This is the way it's gotta be
Candle is the light I pretend

In the end I have to discover
My personal punishment
A way to suffer
Suffering untill the end